Everything i do, it's never good enough to win something.  So wtf was it about to get money for 'doing well' when i still have got nothing in return for that?

I could give away all my decadent posessions in return for that one positive letter in my mailbox but it won't happen with such a foolish thought.

I either get left out completely or something happens at the very last minute.  Life is unfair like that.

I think i'm about to burst soon.  I would like to take a break for a day or two but i don't know why i just can't seem to go up to my boss and tell her that i wanna take leave.

It's less than 2 weeks before school starts and i was thinking that taking 2 days off from work would be a good idea since i've been working for a while.  I secretly think that if i were to rest, time would just past faster.  But when time goes by faster, maybe one day i'll look at my email inbox and see a much welcomed email waiting to be read.

Then there's the possibility of time going by faster than i would like and i end up being forgotten.  What a dilemma, i don't think i like what's going through my mind at the moment but i made it this way  :(.

I aim to make things a bit easier so i don't have such a hard time thinking about so many things at any one time. 

I'm not sure why i chose those 3 modules.  I think i got them because i chose the lovely S.

I need a breaaaaak.  I really should stop working soon.

It seems like train rides on Mondays are always the most insane because it appears like everyone's rushing to get to work on time.  People push and squeeze while boarding the train the most as well, leaving those who choose to be civilised to take the next train that comes when they could have got on if they did some elbowing =X.

There are many things at the back of my mind and i realised i've been very silly.  The sort of silliness i feel is the kind where one feels like it's better to just jump into a manhole and disappear.

I decided to visit an ex-colleague's blog a while ago and i realised he'd gone back home for his vacation.  It seems like he's maintained really strong bonds with his family members and not to mention, very strongly rooted and sentimental.

Why oh why did i only notice those leather shoes so late?  Why did that booming voice go unnoticed for so long?  It was there all the while but it seems like i was caught up with other things, like trying to adapt and finding my way around places.

And then it became disappointing.  Somemore people came along, but it wasn't quite the same.  Time wasn't my best friend either and as my room mate said, 'i think you need to try harder...'

I'm not sure if the room mate was very happy with things on her side but i think she might have wanted or perhaps, expected a fair bit more of whatever she got.

The last week flew by amidst the packing, late night suppers, drinking and clubbing.  Farewells and hugs were exchanged but they all felt a bit empty.  I left a note, probably got chucked.

It's okay.  There're better day to look forward to :)

August is coming to an end, and then i'll leave the company to work for another one.  My parents are displeased after i described what i have to do at the new company.  They've been asking me to call my ex-boss instead

The peace in my little world at the office has been thoroughly disturbed with the arrival of a new person.  Thank goodness this person will only sit here for a week before moving elsewhere, but by then i'll be left with another week before i say goodbye.

I feel obliged to buy something for the rest of the colleagues next week but i don't feel like doing so because i feel very distant even though they include me in almost everything.  I sometimes wish they wouldn't ask me to join in because whatever they're doing has got nothing to do with me.

Oh well, say hello to a Monday morning.  It's time to get back to work~